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Apr 9, 2023Liked by Brian Spears

Well, I just yelled, no, no, no! because I just accidently erased a comment that I spent about 20 minutes writing. It was about how a visit to a gas station today reminded me of the emotions that can accompany shootings. Fear, hatred, anger. The poem that came to mind after reading your piece was this Derek Walcott poem not because it relates to guns and shootings, but because it's the opposite of the kind of fear, hatred and anger that can be a part of shootings. Thank you for your essay and for the opportunity to share.

Love After Love

The time will come

when, with elation

you will greet yourself arriving

at your own door, in your own mirror

and each will smile at the other's welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.

You will love again the stranger who was your self.

Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart

to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored

for another, who knows you by heart.

Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,

peel your own image from the mirror.

Sit. Feast on your life.

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Apr 9, 2023Liked by Brian Spears

I loved the short film of your poem, by the way.

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Thanks. I really do too. I couldn't deny that Murray's read of it was just as accurate as my own vision of the poem when I wrote it. I always think back to something one of my early professors Miller Williams wrote, which was that a poem occurs when the imagination of the writer and the imagination of the reader meet inside an act of language, and that the poem on the page is the meeting place. I'm paraphrasing, but that's the gist of it. And so there's never just one poem there. It's a new experience (hopefully) for every person who meets it.

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I have to put this here beside the feathers: “I have but the power to kill, / Without - the power to die -“

My Life had stood - a Loaded Gun (764)

BY EMILY DICKINSON

My Life had stood - a Loaded Gun -

In Corners - till a Day

The Owner passed - identified -

And carried Me away -

And now We roam in Sovreign Woods -

And now We hunt the Doe -

And every time I speak for Him

The Mountains straight reply -

And do I smile, such cordial light

Opon the Valley glow -

It is as a Vesuvian face

Had let it’s pleasure through -

And when at Night - Our good Day done -

I guard My Master’s Head -

’Tis better than the Eider Duck’s

Deep Pillow - to have shared -

To foe of His - I’m deadly foe -

None stir the second time -

On whom I lay a Yellow Eye -

Or an emphatic Thumb -

Though I than He - may longer live

He longer must - than I -

For I have but the power to kill,

Without - the power to die -

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Apr 9, 2023Liked by Brian Spears

Wow. Powerful essay, thank you.

I wish I had my own poetry to share, but probably shouldn’t share the haikus I write during boring meetings. However, I am an appreciator. Here’s a good one to share:

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/57243/how-to-be-perfect

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I yelped when the actress woke up screaming. Your poem is introspective. They did a great film of it. And this essay is insightful and reflective as well. Thank you for sharing.

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I loved the poem in the film, and I liked the way they did it.

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